sooo right now im single and im disgusted with myself, ive gained weight over this winter break because i decided to stop restricting & fasting for 2 weeks cause of the holidays cause i dont want people to think i have an eating disorder and ive started to "eat normally".its been the worst 2 weeks for me ever, i always have thoughts about how badly i want to restrict and stop eating, it makes me so happy thinking about when im going to start doing it again. my self confidence has plummeted beyond rock bottom though. im basically depressed, ive never realized how clearly i have this disease and i dont think ill ever get out of it! whenever im restricting or starving i feel so much better about myself and i gain such great confidence with me and boys. do u guys feel this way?? its impossible for me to eat like a pig and be with a hott boy, IMPOSSIBLE!

heyyyy i was browsing pro ana web sites and i came across this site, and i made an account. i need inspriation and support. I usually dont eat for a week straight and longer,but i always fail because i dont have support of any kind and i have a weak mind, i often binge when i fail. ive lost 10 lbs doing this on and off. what are your focuses and inspirations you have that keep you on track?

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